Scripture:  For the word of the cross is folly to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God…

For since…the world did not know God through wisdom, it pleased God through the folly of what we preach to save those who believe.

For Jews demand signs…and Greeks wisdom; but we preach Christ crucified.  (It is) a stumbling block to Jews and folly to Gentiles, but to those who are being called (both Jews or Greeks) Christ—the power of God and the wisdom of God.  (excerpted from 1 Cor 1:18-24)

Observation:  The Cross: the power of God.  The Cross: the wisdom of God.  Sounds like folly, looks like folly—it is anything but folly.

Analysis:  I can talk about the Cross a lot.  In fact, I do.

What I have issues with is to walk consistently with Cross knowledge predominate in my life.

The study of God (theology) has a place, but, if it doesn’t translate into change of my life then it is sort of ineffective.  At least for me, from my perspective, theological study without change in the way I walk, walking worthy of the Gospel, is empty.

Yesterday I blew my stack with my spouse, shook my finger and everything.  Not only that but nursed an “I was right” perspective for a while—just to have the whisper of God go “Not so fast, buddo: Anger of man is not righteousness.  Who are you representing anyway?  My Ways or yours?”

I have theses “outbursts” of anger often enough that my apologies can be doubted…a lot.  Even if these happen once per month (12 times a year) that is a lot.  I write this confession, not to pat myself on the back and show how spiritual I am, but to be transparent showing the things I write are first and foremost to the face in the mirror.

What does the Cross mean to me?  As Jesus died for me on the Cross, so I die for Him at the Cross; meaning, I lay my life down at the foot of the Cross.  If I want the power of God in my life, then I embrace the Cross.  It is not a trinket around the neck, or a pin on the label of a jacket.  It is more than a symbol—it is the actual Power and Wisdom of God.

The Cross (and by extension the Gospel) is imperative study so that my walk changes to walk worthy.

So, what do I do?  I would like to think there is a formula involved: confess, ask forgiveness, repent, and go further.  How does that work out with actual people involved?  Yeah, you guessed it: moment by moment, all sorts of ramifications to deal with in the wake of my outburst.

Being a disciple is not easy.

Prayer:  Father, help me to navigate this issue with my spouse and the others involved.  Be thorough in me; I want to walk more fully in Your ways.  AMEN